Shroud of Mourning

The shroud of mourning has come again to my dwelling for on the eve of last my mother past.  *la sigh* I am now without the woman I have called "mama" , my Merami, for the last 30 years since my adoption at 6 months old.  I am at a loss and feel numb.  Shock, depression, and unsureness... this is what I can put my finger on for feelings.  Numbness for sure.  So thankful for my Robby today.  Who knows what the next months foretell?

~ Morria

Horror!

Merami is ill.  CANCER!  My heart is crying for her!  How can I stay here?  How can I leave?  She says there is little chance of beating it.  The Docs give her 6 moths at tops, she is praying for longer so she and Dad can get her afares in order.    What is a daughter to do?

It's not like I have not lived with the possibility of this since I was old enough to understand... 4 years old I think I was, the first time I understood what one of her cancer scares was.  But not this... this is the first time it has not been just a scare.  

Shock...
Horror...
Fright...
That is all that comes mind... I'm at a loss for words.

~ Morria

Tragedy...

I am in complete and total shock...
Why God! Why?!?!?!?????
Samuel was killed to day driving home from work.  He was like the big brother I never had, in some ways a spiritual father.
 Shall I ever fell normal again?
What of Rebv and Liz, his brother and sister?
What of his young widow and their 3 children?
I have cried till tears no more will run.
I drew till my heart would brake, shall I e're draw again?
My heart is crushed,
My life in pieces.
Just hold me God!

~ Morria