She's Gone?

On March 13th, I lost something... No, someone, very dear to me.  I lost my mother.  I had dwelt with her from 6 months old till I was 24, and spoke with her nearly every day.  Now there is an empty void.  I keep expecting her to call.  I keep expecting to hear her voice on the other end of the phone... but I never will again.  How does one prepare for this?  How can CANCER do this to us?

Yeah, sure, I had nearly 2 years to prepare... from October 2012, till now.  But still all that is left is this throbbing hole where she once was.  I lost my guide for children's ministry stuff, true I am in Dine Bikeyah and she was in Kansas, but I always called her.  I lost my care box maker... which I normally got one box a month, and card every week... I will never see her handwriting in the mail box again... HELP!  I am heart broken... what do I do from here?

~ Morria

Tragedy...

I am in complete and total shock...
Why God! Why?!?!?!?????
Samuel was killed to day driving home from work.  He was like the big brother I never had, in some ways a spiritual father.
 Shall I ever fell normal again?
What of Rebv and Liz, his brother and sister?
What of his young widow and their 3 children?
I have cried till tears no more will run.
I drew till my heart would brake, shall I e're draw again?
My heart is crushed,
My life in pieces.
Just hold me God!

~ Morria