I think I shall begin ministering in the underground, among my fellow subculture folks. I have started a web-ministry. I am calling it "The Chalice". I am so excited and so nervous about this... but my heart is fulling in this. I am ready to give my life to this, if this be my full journey-task. Or this may be for a season, but I will give it my all until there is nothing else to give, or God moves me from this path.
Jump
A ledge, the edge, is this
the end I fear?
Knowing not what lies beneath
or beyond,
shall I take this step and
met my rocky fate
or is there a path unseen
waiting for my first step?
Oh, fateful step of faith,
what waits for me at first
step?
Life or Death?
Hope or fear?
Joy or pain?
I know not, yet still,
journey this path I must.
2002 - MMH/MMN
~ Morria
Something interesting I was introduced to while in New Orleans, was the concept of Subculture Christians: Goths, Punks, Sk8ers, Metalheads, and more. I mean, I had know somewhat about Punks who serve Christ, one of the youth pastors from camp (who's mom is good friends with mine), is a Punk. But I never really thought of it, especially when it came to the Goths. I have always been interested in Goths, but everyone told me "Those black clothed heathens have nothing to do with Christ, and their is no hope for them unless they convert and give up there dressing in darkness." Yet, dark colored clothing for the first 1700-1800 years of Christianity was looked on as being pious... hmm. I must look into this more.
What do I make of life? What are my dreams and goals? Where do I want to go from here? These are the questions that have been swimming around in my head... Not just because I am now 18 (and freaked out on my birthday... unsure where the path after high school goes)... but because I need to start making plans. High school ends in just months... I am not really sure where to go from here. My bike will only get me so far, and I have no job, no insurance, and only a dream in my heart.
There has to be a journey-task out there for m me... something God made me to do. Or maybe it works like this: maybe there is a different journey-task for each season of our lives. How should I know, but I sure do hope to find out soon!