Life is always change, always shifting on us. Nothing ever stays the same. This is especially true in the dusty windy season of the desert southwest. What would I do if things truly stayed the same? I would not have wanted to stay where I was 9 and 10 years ago, during the "year of sorrow". Why do I call it that, and not the "year of death"? Death is just so much part of mortal life, that the "year of sorrow" just makes more since... Why?
10 years ago, five people close to me died in 6 months, plus my dog Wolfy died, plus my mom and and grandma were going through major health issues. I was at the end of my ropes. I took a knife and tried to end it all, and probably would have if two dear friends had not stopped me. Then over the next years, I was abused by my x-boyfriends...repeatedly, as I kept going back...
Yes, I am glad the winds of change blow through all our lives. God give us each healing, if we honestly seek it from Him...though at times it can seem slow. Today I am happily married, a missionary, and dreaming of a homestead with our own family. Today there is joy and peace in my life. That is what I pray for all of you, my friends, His peace and joy.
~ Morria
